The Date is Set! April 1, 2008

Hey Everyone! Donna and I have finally set a date to meet. We are meeting on April 21 at the beach. We rented a little house, ocean front and just perfect. It will be so fun being able to just sit and talk. We plan on visiting Charleston and maybe a couple of other things, but mainly having a nice, mellow time. I am so excited I can barely stand it.

 It’s funny, I’ve waited so long for this. Our vacation is only like 20 days away, but it seems like 30 years away instead. I keep telling myself (you’ve waited this long…)

Donna’s son has graduation in May and she won’t be able to make my birthday. Mom and I are going to plan something else, so I will let everyone know later about that. 

For now, thank you all for being so supportive! I am so lucky to have family and friends that love me so much.

Easter March 23, 2008

I am sorry I’ve not updated this blog in while. It’s been busy at work and I’ve been in another world to be honest. All is well though.

Donna and I are becoming great friends! It’s been such a trip getting to know her and not to mention – pure joy. How lovely and beautiful to have her in my life.

Donna and I will be meeting next month. We have decided to meet at the beach and just zone out for a few days. It will be so fun to relax and just get to know each other. In May she will be coming here for my birthday and to meet my family.

I feel a little guilty this Easter about not praising God and honoring Lent. My life lately has been all about me and adjusting to knowing Donna. I usually try to  give up something. Pray. Reflect. However, lately I’ve just been in a such a good place I have forgotten to be a good Catholic girl. God has given me such an awesome present. I am so thankful.

I am thankful for everyone in my life. Even though I may not get to say it often enough – I love you all. I’ve been so blessed with a colorful group of friends and family. Lets all try to be more thankful of each other and what we have. On this Easter, I wish you all a good day. Whether it’s with family, friends or just being yourself – be happy.

Life is good February 13, 2008

It’s so nice to be in touch with my Birth Mother Donna. She and I have spoken again and had a great conversation. As I’ve said before, it’s so unbelievable to find out my birth family history. I just cannot express how strange it is. It hit me today, I have two histories. How marvelous! It’s also neat to look at these picture’s and know that my blood actually came from some place. OK, I know that sounds strange. I guess the only way to describe it is feeling complete.

I did get the a lot of information from Donna on my Grandparents, with picture’s. It was a wild feeling to sit and stare at them for a while. I like knowing.

My entry today is short, I just wanted to let you know how it was going. I am very pleased and so eager to know more too. I am ending with a poem/short story, the author is unknown. Many of you know this poem… it hangs in a frame on Moms refrigerator and has for at least 22 years. Jacqui cut this poem out of a teen magazine when we were kids. She gave it to me and I gave it to Mom. It’s been on the frig ever since. I love it! It says so much.

LEGACY OF AN ADOPTED CHILD

Once there were two women, who never knew it each other. One you do not remember, the other you call mother.

Two different lives, shaped to make yours one. One became your guiding star, the other became your sun.

The first gave you life. The second taught you to live in it. The first gave you need for love and the second was there to give it.

One gave you a nationality. The other gave you a name. One gave you the seed of talent. The other gave you aim.

One gave you emotions. The other calmed your fears. One saw your first smile, the other dried your tears. One gave you up, it was all that she could do. The other prayed for a child and was led straight to you.

And now you ask me through your tears, the age-old question through the years. Heredity or environment – which are you the product of? Neither, my darling neither – Just two different kinds of love.      Author Unknown.

Feeling grounded. February 8, 2008

This is my third entry, if you haven’t read this blog before please scroll down and read from the bottom up. Thanks. 

It’s been just a total roller coater ride for me these past few days. I am feeling so good about meeting Donna! All my life I’ve not had any hang ups about being adopted. The only thing that ever was strange, was not knowing who I look like. Now I know. It feels so nice. What is even better is knowing Donna. I can tell she and I will be lifetime friends. When I lay in bed until my final days, I don’t have that annoying wonder in my head anymore. How nice.

Everyone keeps asking about my birth father. For privacy sake, I will only use his first name, which is Jim.  Donna told me with a good bit of phone calls, she might be able to find him. In short, he did know about me. However, I get the feeling in speaking with Donna, I might leave that search as is. I do know why my singing voice is good, I get it from him. Donna said his voice was very good. It’s just cool knowing that much. For now, it’s all I need.

My family is doing fine with all this. I think they were just as curious as me. I’ve not had any bad reactions. In fact, I owe all of you a big thank you for all the nice voice mail’s, calls and visits. All of you are so supportive and always have been. Thank you so much. I feel so blessed to have so many friends and such a good family. I feel even more blessed that my family just got bigger.

Well, I think I will take in come TV and try to get to bed early. Good night.

Nice to meet you. February 7, 2008

(If you haven’t read this blog before, you need to scroll down and read my first entry. Go ahead – go do it. ) 

Well, it happened. My Birth Mother Donna phoned me tonight. I have to say it was the best thing in the world. People rarely get their dreams answered, but one of mine was scratched off the list tonight.

I’ve always hoped I would meet her and it finally happened. Donna is just as cool as I knew she had to be. Donna is just what all you thought she would be. So breath in and out. All is well. It’s funny, I always knew in my heart we would get along just fine. It seems we will form a wonderful friendship. We are a lot alike.

The phone rang earlier this evening and my heart jumped. When I mean jumped, I mean jumped, stopped and started back all at once. I knew it had to be her. It was. I picked up the phone almost right away and just said hello. She told me it was her and we just started talking.  I think we both cleared a runway in 5 seconds and just talked. It was just what I needed. I think it was just what she needed too.

After years of wondering I found out she was scared I would be mad. I assured her I was never mad. I always loved her for giving me life. I told her she gave me the best family ever. A wonderful life. Donna seemed to be very happy to hear she did the right thing. If she reads this now, never ever in your life to you need to wonder. All is well. You made the right choice. Fate dealt me a kick ass hand.

Donna, I was writing as fast as I could… so hopefully the information I write below is correct. If not, feel free to use the comments box and correct. It was hard to smoke, hold the phone, write and shake all at once.

I found out my birth name is Marcia Mechelle. Not Marsha, it’s Mar cee a. Just in case some of you pronounce it wrong. I have to half brothers too. One is 23 and the other is 28. One a wrestler and the other a school teacher. Donna is a retired school teacher.  Donna tells me my Birth Father does have children, but doesn’t know much else.  But could help me find him if I really wanted.

I have more written down, but thought that was enough for a start.  I need to sit back and let everything sink in. It’s nice to know my medical history… I am sure I will learn more. Now I can fill that form in when I go back to the doctor. Weird. It’s the little things that mean so much.

This is one of those night’s I’ll never forget. Like ever. What a gift. Donna and I will be exchanging picture’s soon. I cannot wait. For now, my chunky butt is going to lumber off to bed. I feel a weight was lifted and for some reason it made me tired. Who knew I could actually go to bed at a decent hour?

Good night all.

Wonder February 6, 2008

First, if I haven’t called and told many of you about this yet… I am sorry. I really wanted to wait until I knew for sure. What this whole thing is about is – my Birth Mother found me! Yeah, I know – Whoa.

I had filled out a free registry a while ago and she found me on it. It has taken a few days of asking questions back and forth to confirm this.  This is the main reason I haven’t said anything. I didn’t want to get all excited about it and it be a complete bomb. Today I found out for sure, it indeed wasn’t a bomb. It is my Birth Mother and her name is Donna.

I know most of you are asking a million questions now. I am sorry I don’t have any answers to give you. Where is she? Who is she? What does she look like? Where does she live? Etc. Etc. I JUST got her email and name today from the lady who runs the registry. I sat and wrote her a quick note today. I told her my phone number, emails and thank you for what she did for me. I pray she reads it tonight and calls. ANYTHING. My stomach is in knots. I can barely sleep. The excitement is too much now.

As I learn more, I will post it all here. I’ve taken in the horrible thought she may chicken out. I’d be heart broken, but something tells me different. I’ve always wanted to be her friend. I’ve always dreamed of telling her about the wonderful life she gave me. I’d love to see who I look like. I know my writing seems spotty, but my mind is racing.

I hope I have more to tell you tomorrow. I may just use this blog as a diary of thoughts too – which all of you are welcome to read.  I love you all! Christy